White Bird In Snow
This unsleeping night
remembers winter for me
as it remembers the January hour
I was born, seeing past the still
green curl of April's exhausted leaf
the chill glassful of north wind,
so delicately sipped now
before the drowning.
It knows my name, it calls me
winter girl, drifted witch,
snow-woman globed from rolled
frozen fog, compressed cloud wrack,
sentinel-eyed and carrot-beaked,
ice fingers melted then
rigid again around
sentinel-eyed and carrot-beaked,
ice fingers melted then
rigid again around
a hollow pen;
bent wrist, bent back, ages
bent wrist, bent back, ages
old, so old not even an ash-furred coal
glows from the parsed fire in my pale
flattened face.
The sleepless night
rustles with husks and remains;
a coyote stutters his hunger
to the
planked stars
and here where all things pass,
and here where all things pass,
long sleep comes down the grass
where I wait
where I wait
invisible and surprised
as a white bird
in October snow.
~October/November 2016
for Brendan at real toads
from a still, white place
Images: House in Snow, 1890-94, by John Henry Twatcham
White Birds in Snow, by Ohara Koson
Public domain.