Age of Forfeit
"..I deny the tastes and habits of the age.
I am its punk debauche..A fierce lampoon
seeking to inherit what is necessary to forfeit.."
~1959, Gregory Corso
Ten years old in '59
learning how to eat plastic
how to steal the eyes
of sorrow, how to watch the TV box
build the marshmallow engines of dreams;
learning how to flip forward and back,
an acrobat of lies, an appearance nun, bride-to-be of
Christ's money, of necrotic success, of tears
that can only come out at night.
Ten years old in '59
the decade of glorious acquisition,
born from war and set to marinate in flag-juice,
to memorize the ABC's: Avarice, Bombast, Consumption
at all costs. Eat cake on your birthday. Ignore
the bleached bones of beauty floating
in your corn flakes, the ghost-children, your peers,
who howled as they died in the split atom's vomit.
Don't look at
the malice behind the service.
Don't go too far. Don't grow your hair
or wander in the ruins of compassion;
there's no money there. Don't ask why you're
starving on plenty, little girl, little pawn. Learn
to iron a shirt, feed the baby, please your man, work
in the cafe, at the office, behind the
dimestore counter selling blood-paste
for lyrically lying lips
or you'll be the joke,
the reject, the outcast forever
running for your life.
December 2021
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Images: Fifties photographs, courtesy of Soren Larsen, © Frank Larson Fair Use



