Compression
It was a little monkey
with a red hat.
I knew I couldn’t have it.
The cage was much too small
for both of us
even though the monkey
was no bigger than a drop
of black blood
it made the keepers very
angry that I even
angry that I even
asked.
'How can we ever
let you out,' said the one
who pretended to be kind
'when you want monkeys?'
As if.
As if.
The other, never a great
pretender, made that insect clicking
in his beard. 'Tcha,' he said
or perhaps 'Tsttst!'
I said, 'I thought I heard
the Rapture passing through
and it left parson's widow
but took Loup Garou.'
Heads began to shake
in a dominating palsy.
I said, 'I thought I heard
the Rapture passing through
and it left parson's widow
but took Loup Garou.'
Heads began to shake
in a dominating palsy.
said Insect Beard
though his eyes were eaten
years ago, 'she’s had
too much room
too much space to think,
two big ears
two big ears
to hear the devil whisper
in the window.
in the window.
'We must make it
much much tighter
much much tighter
in here, so not even a hair
from a monkey’s tail, or the
itch of a wolf's flea will fit.'
Then I learned to be
small as a dropped
tear,
smaller than a
smaller than a
particled prion that pulls
its sad viral sponge into
cow's brain, erasing,
or the smallest enzyme
in the storm boiled lachrymal lake
its sad viral sponge into
cow's brain, erasing,
or the smallest enzyme
in the storm boiled lachrymal lake
for there is no sailing allowed in here
or drowning.
Only somewhere a monkey
wandering
lost in a little red hat.
Only somewhere a monkey
wandering
lost in a little red hat.
November 2011
Posted for OpenLinkNight at dVerse Poets Pub
Footer Image: The Princess and the Monkey, by Janis Rozantals, 1913
Janis Rozentals [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons
"for there is no sailing allowed in here
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Wow!
I felt shrink wrapped reading this :) The sense of oppression is tangible. Brilliant!
This one hurt me in my bones, excellent work. Prion is a surprise and much appreciated.
ReplyDelete'Then I learned to be
small as a dropped
tear,'
a true tragedy that no one should endure.
oy, felt i was inside the inferno a bit hedge...monkeys and men with insect beards and no eyes...and loup garu...and learning to be small...my shoulders got all tense...as i felt the walls closing in....
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed it through the pain.
ReplyDeletevery sad - a child that seemed to want so little and those today seem to get more than enough and yet, can be just as sad.
ReplyDeleteAs there is a Devil's Dictionary, and "The Marriage of Heaven and Hell," so there must be a Bizarro Grimm's, the fairy tale writ upside down and backwards in this style, where the wolf is there to save us from Grandma's oatmeal cookies... I read this as kin and kind to yesterday's "Flat," taking a cue from the dreamscape to aright the wrongs of makers of children's books. In every child's psyche I think is this big/small paradox, where there's no way to stand up to the devil so we wish to shrink between his toes. You compressed and sharpened this on the strop til it slices easily to the bone ... Now my day is populated with walking red hats, loup garous and eyeless crickets. Eek. - Brendan
ReplyDeleteThanks all, for enduring my therapy sessions.
ReplyDelete@B: Nothing can save you from grandma's oatmeal cookies, dude. When you meet the devil, you can run, you can hide, or you can shake his hand--I like to think the former choices beat the latter. May the hats, wolfen and crickets be gentle with you. Thanks for reading.
Imaginative pain . . . I think it helps to get away from it to configure it this way. Brilliant. I hope freedom comes, and soon.
ReplyDeleteReally cool poem, kind of surrealist with a medieval flair. It may be that one can only be free in one's mind, but compressed to the size of a nut or smaller and one is in danger of being chased about in there by crazed red monkeys.
ReplyDelete@Mark: Exactly. Or chasing them yourself.
ReplyDeleteWow hedge this has the same music as one of my reoccurring nightmares.
ReplyDelete"I thought I heard
ReplyDeletethe Rapture passing through"
One of those lines that you wish you wrote because it is a perfect line. I am jealous while I applaud you.
Cheers,
Mark Butkus
This is SO good, reading is absolutely fun! And just how small is 'small'? WOW! If you looking for that minute monkey, the is one on my back--used to weigh a ton. Went on a diet, hardly anything left excpet that little (small?--grin!) red hat.
ReplyDeleteThank you for hosting, it is MY pleasure to be here.
Great Poem and Fun, Fun read ...love the whole fairy tale feeling fell right into it...bkm
ReplyDeleteThere's that dread of the other who is too nearly like us, whether monkey or werewolf, plus, in the distortions of insect-beards, a sense of the kind of nightmare horror that C.S. Lewis reaches toward in That Hideous Strength or that Gorey hits upon. Creepy-good!
ReplyDeleteReminds me a bit of Dean Koontz novels. Everything is normal... nearly but not quite.
ReplyDeleteYou had me from the monkey in the red hat. I always wanted one of those small squirrel monkeys as a pet.
Fabulous imagery of both struggle and strife.
In my mind this whole episode takes place in some muddy market in the 1500's. "Then I learned to be
ReplyDeletesmall as a dropped tear" love it
Hey you...I have claustrophobia!
ReplyDeleteAmazing. Wonderful.
ReplyDeletedang hedge...not sure if i get this right but for me this speaks all about holding people small...not allowing them to dream..like: what they still have this silly dreams...? give them more work, make their space small, choke them so they adapt to the smallness and never ever think about flying again...oh god...maybe it's just me...but this gave me shivers..excellent
ReplyDeletean intriguing piece.
ReplyDeleteI enter in media res to a three-way fantastical conversation. Inquisition-like atmosphere.
she's being compressed! bizarre. yet she's pleasantly coherent, which adds to the weirdness.
wow. good...very good piece. very interesting.
Small as a dropped tear.... This is awesome, moving and sad. A brilliant poem.
ReplyDeleteThis has your signature dazzling lines, and to have imagined this poem at all is something impressive. I like it.
ReplyDeleteDangerous to think too much when insect beard is watching. Make yourself small so he won't notice? This is a great poem. Dark and poignant images.
ReplyDelete"Then I learned to be
ReplyDeletesmall as a dropped
tear,"
I feel the climax line of your piece... very thoughtful today... a lesson learned
Smart allegorical poem, hedge. And I ask myself, why did I let them put me in this cage in the first place?!
ReplyDeletePowerful and vivid... I especially like the last four stanzas.
ReplyDeleteExceptional piece. I love the narrative, really has a mythic flavor to it, wonderful storytelling as usual. There is an ever-presence sad, suffocation feel, I like the shrinkwrapped comment someone made earlier, very fitting indeed. Love your work, Thanks
ReplyDeleteAs I read, I thought of all those people who ever tried to hold me back in my life, those who tried to stifle my motion or force silence. That's how the cage feels to me. Excellent as always. If I see the monkey, I'll toss him a treat when no one is looking. We all deserve a pleasure or two.
ReplyDelete"though his eyes were eaten
ReplyDeleteyears ago"
Damn, that's brilliant.
The matter of fact tone of this makes it twice as terrifying.
I'm often struck by the fact that such dips in the well of darkness are written by someone whose name is Joy. The natural balance to that fact is as perfect as this piece of surreal (or too-real) verse. The matter-of-factness of tone amid the horror put me in mind of McCarthy's "Blood Meridian."
ReplyDeleteor perhaps 'Tsttst!'
ReplyDeleteI said, 'I thought I heard
the Rapture passing through
and it left parson's widow
but took Loup Garou.'
^^^^^love that
Another brilliant write...the flow within the story is fabulous. As I read, I couldn't help but conjure images of Alice's Wonderland; but, there was a sadness, too, as I recall trying to make myself when I was small...most interesting. Thank you, you got me to think 'larger' tonight ~
(PS love the pic of your writing space!)
Surreal tale. Every time you think of something or try to fly in a new direction, there's a block. One would not be caged but what happens when one is already in a cage, how does one get out. Rather frightening and nightmarish this image of being squashed.
ReplyDeleteThe way the world has become, to me is a perfectly illustrated in your poem. Day by day they take a little away from you, until we all find ourselves in a cage and the dreams of having fun/ the monkey with the red hat/ seem almost impossible! The ugly truth! That of course might be the wrong idea of how I read your poem, but either way, it was your talent with words that made the journey here pleasant!
ReplyDelete..this one drips with horrors.. such unemotional description of being cramped and confined, chained and imprisoned... strong nightmare images..very much like your approach to this.. but I feel the dread I felt as a child...
ReplyDeleteWell, I have no new insight but I definitely enjoyed reading this. I do love your creativity and I appreciate you reminding me how it feels when we allow ourselves to feel smaller than we are (decidedly not fun). The challenge is to stop playing small and to use our newfound big-ness to do something good...
ReplyDeleteDear Hedge...
ReplyDeleteIts surrealistic... that small drop of blood... from the begining I was seeing the images like the salvador dali or now Vladimir Kush paintings...
You have captured the image and the essence of our being in the world well...
thanks for sharing..
Shashi
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya
http://shadowdancingwithmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/whispers-where-you-will-go.html
oy. there's a lot to this. mad cow & monkeys & loup garou... and it all comes together in such exquisite painfulness. brava.
ReplyDeleteOh the squeeze of being judged as taking up too much space and forced to edit ourselves down, to what? Nothingness, in service to our moralistic tormentors. As if. This is brilliant in a cuts to the bone way.
ReplyDeleteMany thanks all. I appreciate you all coming by and taking the time to comment. If I haven't visited you yet, I will as the day goes on.
ReplyDelete@Angela--glad you liked the poem, and the computer cave. It's where I live, mostly.
"small as a dropped tear", a fabulous line, emblematic of such a sad deprivation here. The confining mood, having to hold onto so much while becoming so little, really resonates.
ReplyDeleteGene
WOW! SPECTACULAR writing. Dazzling and deep.
ReplyDeleteI do believe I have issues. I see myself in almost everything I read today. I really like this--characters, imagery ... the title alone pulled me into the poem. This feels so familiar, too familiar. Mmmmm, savoring it with all my masochist's sensibilities.
ReplyDeleteSuffocating yet so welll captured,you ,queen of verse
ReplyDeleteThis "feels" poetic throughout...no lapses, woven with great lines. And the formal dynamic keeps each verse moving one to the next--at least the way I perceive the rhythms. Great imagination here and a very refined poem.
ReplyDeleteHey Hedge
ReplyDeleteThis swallowed me whole and thats that....bloody awesome
Oh, it leaves me so sad!
ReplyDeleteLate to the party, I'm afraid. I read some of your many commments. I didn't read it as they. For me, this is ALL about poetry. The monkey (on the back) is the poem, and it's all about squeezing out all the air, compressing everything, distilling everything, till all that's left is the monkey and the sounds! As Stevens says it doesn't have to be in the mind of the writer to be valid. This is validity for me! Excellent, always!
ReplyDeleteThen I learned to be
ReplyDeletesmall as a dropped
tear,
Beautiful.
Something makes me feel like this poem comes from taking a magnifying glass and enlarging a scene from one of Hieronymus Bosch's fantastical, allegorical paintings. There's nothing better than art - whether painting, sculpture, or poetry - that stops you in your tracks, hits your heart, and then makes you think. This did it to me.
ReplyDeleteOriginal and very accomplished. You have an authentic, and now recognisable poetic voice, which I love.
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